Tuesday, May 22, 2012

I got very intoxicated last night and decided to record something. I'll upload it soon.

Monday, May 14, 2012


I'll be there. Camera in hand, Brian. It's going to take a lot of convincing to make me turn it off this time, especially since you'll be unarmed.

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Hello, Mark

It's been a while.

Another year's almost come and gone.

Let's celebrate, this time, your birthday.

Same place though, alright?

I'll be there. Will you?

Don't worry, I'll be unarmed.

Friday, May 11, 2012

Forward Progress.

I've got my medications, I haven't coughed myself into a migraine, the other medical issue is beginning to resolve itself.

It comes to my attention that I don't know where to go from here.

I guess an attempt at describing/explaining the video on my flash drive?

... and I guess I better explain the other video I've uploaded recently.

First, from the Flash Drive.

I recognize bits and pieces. The footage mostly is from a city. I now am lead to believe Chicago and I think there's a shot of Willis Tower in there too. In one scene I'm on the edge of the woods and someone's yard, carving into a tree. The same tree that I'm walking across early on. It's a large one that fell early last year. Being on it actually gives a decent view of the woods It's in pretty good shape anyway. I seemed to hesitate. Twice. I don't know if it was pain or fear or what. I don't recall it or who was recording me.

I can't tell you anything about more or less any of the other footage. Including disturbingly, the final scenes.

I don't know if you guys noticed it but there's an artifact on the screen during the scene where I descend some sort of stairs. It's hard to see with brightness all the way up but I did tilt my screen a bit and it made it better. It was... disturbing.

Not as much so as the final scene.

Where was I? And what did it do to me? It was right there... right behind me. Perhaps it is to blame for the strange bruising on my shoulders and back? Maybe... maybe not?

As for the other video... let's just say that I've decided to contact the girl I've mentioned, the one I thought I knew? I'm just not sure.

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

More Medical Shit

I've become pretty damned ill and went to the doc. He gave me some pills for what he assures me is a bad case of bronchitis and nothing more. Other medical issues which I won't go into continue to persist and upset me... which is why I haven't said or done much lately. I'm spending all day in bed. And by bed, I mean couch.

Yay, couch.

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Okay. Things aren't... good anymore. Not for her. Means any damage I could do is done already/ I'm going to go ahead and shoot the video now.

Monday, May 7, 2012

Call it desperation

If the person who shot and put together the footage on my flash drive is reading this I want to talk to you. I don't feel like it was me. So who was it? Jesus... it's... it was rather cheesy almost but the end...  but what the fuck is this shit?!

Sunday, May 6, 2012

I have come to the conclusion that I am a wimp and don't want to watch this damned thing alone.

I can't get Ian or Jon to come out any time soon. I mean again, this is just a fuckin video file. It'll probably be nothing.

I've got to get to a doctor next week and depending on what he says and does I may not be on Wednesday or Thursday so I really... can't stall on this much longer. I might have a project unrelated to all of this madness to get started on soon. A buddy of mine wants to do something fun and since I figure he's pretty well safe, I'm going to help him.

Friday, May 4, 2012

Part two.

It's done.

I was tempted not to upload a couple of them but I have to be honest. I made mistakes and I'm not sure how much was me and how much was not.

The description of each upload contains the original descriptions of the videos and my own input. In it I explain some things I didn't want to, but I owe to anyone who's been following this fucked up narrative.

With that... I guess I've nothing left to do but stall.


Reuploading Take 1

The WeArePromethean videos have been reuploaded. I wanted to do something like a slide show of the tumblr but it's just too... involved. I'm leaving it up for any who wish to review it. As an aside the blog is at ianpromethean.tumblr.com It will no longer be active.

I haven't slept since a nap after class last night. I'm afraid if I don't take advantage of my ability to sleep lately I will regret it. So for now.. bed. I'll return to the reupload process later.

Finals are over.

I had a horrible day. I had to finish two finals, one of which was a damned in class essay but I got to finish the other final, my Spanish II final with a pounding headache and being at moments unsure if I was sitting in my classroom or sitting in... I've come to think of it as a warehouse. Whatever I see, for whatever reason, it looks like a warehouse.

I had a beer after class, came home sat around and fell asleep. So I'm getting a late start. I have two more videos to pull off of the channel MarkInHereStill and then I'll begin uploading the other videos. I'll start with the ones Ian posted simply because of chronological order. I don't know why I'm bothering to write this other than that I've got a damned hour before I can grab the other two off through the download on youtube. I'd start uploading I.P. videos now but even the first one would take so damned long.

I've decided that given the shortness of the first three MIHS videos, I intend to merge them into one when I reupload. They were all posted within a few days of each other.

The only question then is whether I shut down the MIHS channel entirely or simply leave it. I think I'll take a page from Ian's book and leave it up as a sort of back up. Speaking of Ian, if you're reading this, you need to apply to get posting rights on this blog, assuming you still want to kill that tumblr.

Which I won't blame you if you do.

Summer off here I go... let's hope it's less interesting than last summer.

We're rapidly approaching a year since this blog began but... considering how many years of this I'm starting to remember... well... it doesn't feel all that important.

I've not put in the flash drive. I'm still... afraid to. It makes me sick.

I'm going to leave Resurrection up. I don't see how it's harming anyone but me and that's just my own fucked up mentality probably.

Last but not least, I know I've mentioned her before but there IS a girl whose story I've been following through youtube. I really, for her sake, don't want to mention her. I feel like I know her but I'm not sure.

When I took my fall over a year ago, I may well have naturally as a result of trauma, lost several memories. In fact, I'm sure I did. However it's almost as if someone took an eraser and erased a line or two back toward the left side of a chalk board. Key bits and pieces from beyond the damage that the fall caused are just still gone, or blurry. I've put much of it together from other memories, from talking to Brian and Ian and from examining the hard drive that Brian procured from Quinn. There are discussions, recorded phone calls, video files (all amounting to damned near NOTHING because this thing does not like getting caught on my camera unless it WANTS to) but... even so it's helped jog my memory on a lot of things.

If this girl on the youtube channel is someone I knew maybe they'll remember me, that's true. But then I don't much feel like randomly terrifying someone just on a hunch.

So... nothing on that for now. Maybe I'll get desperate enough at some point. Maybe not.

I'm going to watch an episode of something and then grab the last two videos.

Long days and pleasant nights.
Live long and prosper.

Take your pick and have a good evening.

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Hi guys.

Last night during the night nothing went wrong. I slept on my couch which is not unusual for me... something about my room makes me uneasy nowadays.

I kept my comp on all night but thanks to my plan settings it was still (barely) alive when I woke so I could check and be sure that the video had uploaded.


I tossed two titles on there because both were fitting.

There's plenty more footage of that con I didn't show because honestly save for once on Sunday when I thought I saw Quinn it's all irrelevant. I was so... PISSED Saturday night.... but I do have something to tell you all.

If you've not watched the above video by now be forewarned...I'm spoiling.

Quinn showed up. He told me not to ignore his phone calls and he told me to go to Sears Tower. I hadn't been there in years. Sunday instead of heading straight home to Indiana I went into Chicago and had a fiasco finding parking and bus routes and such but I got to where I was going.

Except Sears Tower doesn't exist anymore.

It's called Willis Tower now.

Willis T.

Guys, I think I was in or around Chicago during the lost month. Somehow standing at the foot of Willis Tower made me SURE of it. I got a feeling and it's the same feeling I get when I watch that damn mystery video that popped up on my channel, Resurrection. Whenever I see that white mask. It feels WRONG. Does that video have anything to do with it? I don't know. All I know is that the mystery of Willis T. has been solved... thanks to a man who I still can't decide if I hate or not.

Quinn why won't you just fucking talk like a normal damned human being?

Well... I have come to a decision. The missing shirt turned up... the question of Willis T. has been answered... and I saw Quinn.

I need to gather up my cajones and open the video file on that damned flash drive. Who knows what it contains?

Whether it's an avoidance technique or not I've decided I'm not going to do that until I have collected the videos from the channel I began when Quinn had control of my accounts and from Ian's old channel and upload them. It will take me a while which I guess buys me time. Why am I so worried about what one little video will show me? It's probably nothing. More cryptic nonsense.

I also have to wonder how the video Resurrection ended up getting PUT onto my upload queue on MY computer and uploading so quickly, all within twenty minutes, when it takes me hours to upload videos. I have to wonder what it means or why when I look at it or when I looked at the tower, I got that strange feeling like I was pushing against an unmovable wall that pushed back. It wasn't necessarily a physical sensation it's more like... knowing you can't win, knowing you must win and finally in an act of mercy and cruelty you lose spectacularly. It is a feeling of desperation and failure.

I have to stop writing such long ridiculous posts but as I've iterated before.. no one but Alex and Cenobia are reading this anymore so I guess I'm not hurting anyone. This is a blog where I can get things out.

If the aforementioned couple are reading this... did Quinn come back? Why is your blog silent?

Finals, Videos, Migraines

It just keeps happening. It's starting to get more frequent. She was crying last night. I could tell it was tears even if it was just on the edge of my hearing. My head just throbbed.

I've decided that since I had no time today and won't have any while running around taking finals tomorrow that I'm going to let the video I've put together about ACen and what happened there upload over night.

Hopefully when left unattended no more unwelcome and unsolicited videos will appear on my channel.

I don't know why but that Resurrection video makes me feel so very uncomfortable.

For those who didn't see it this video kicked my video off of my damned uploading queue and uploaded in a time that should have been fuckin impossible for my current internet. I couldn't have been away for twenty minutes.

Here it is:


I can't make heads or tails of it. Let me know if you can.

Anyway, I'm gonna set MY video to uploading very soon. Will link it in the morning before class or after my first one, hell if I know which.

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Apparently I shouldn't shower!

I went to take a shower while I let my upload queue continue the long process of uploading my video of the events of this last weekend. I just got out and according to youtube a video uploaded alright but MY video had HOURS to go because of my shit internet... and it is entirely gone from the queue. The video that uploaded... it was in the queue but I didn't put it there. I checked my hard drive but it's not on it. It apparently uploaded about 20 minutes ago.

And here's the damned kicker... I only got into the shower about 25 minutes ago.

The damn thing uploaded faster than anything I've tried to upload lately could have DREAMED of.

I'm frustrated. I'll try again tomorrow.


Afternote. I've talked with Ian and I've decided that I'm going to add him as a member to this blog. He'll be able to post but I imagine he'll post about as often if not less often than Brian. It will let him get rid of the tumblr he started while he was under the influence of whatever this thing did to him. Similarly the video channel that my drugged up self made when my passwords to all of my accounts had been changed by Quinn and the video channel that Ian made will be taken down. Relevant videos will be reuploaded... probably with commentary in the description. Christ only knows how long that will take with my net connection but it's necessary so that I can get control over all of this.

Things got so chaotic and I'm so far behind on UNDERSTANDING.

Ta-ta for now.